Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Still Crazy after all this year

I can't believe it's been almost a year since I posted anything.  I really can't!

Sometimes I think my life is on auto pilot...
Get up, run around like crazy.
Go to work, try to fit too much in and go crazy.
Come home, fight with kids about homework, sports, food, and say crazy things.

Everyday the same.  I love my kids, I love my life.... sometimes I just want different.  And then I feel guilty for wanting it.
What if I'd tried being a stay-at-home mom?
What if we'd never had Chase and had to go through more years of diapers and staying home for naps, Would my older kids be more adventurous or have better experiences?
Would I be happier if I could just shut off the "get involved" instinct at work?

I'm going to try and update more again.  I have things I need to get out, and maybe no one will read them.  I'm ok with that.  Maybe I'd even prefer that... but I need to have a voice again.